"AMOR FATI OR ANTI MANIFESTO"

Rachael Haigh

The sea was once an idea –
a life in time-lapse. Feelings
held captive others I couldn’t
bypass. My face was let go
of long ago. Lied as a kid -
runaway imagination.

                                                              The places I’ve lived would
                                                              lead some to defenestration
                                                              Each instance of laughter was
                                                              a mask half brocade, half satin.
                                                              I remain nomadic immersed in
                                                              abbreviation.

Likely dying dozens of ways
if not for fate’s intervention.
Used tallies to mark time. Molars
Nearly flattened. It so happened
I lied awake - legions within wear
their names like diadems.

                                                              The muse found me on the psych
                                                              ward floor. Pressed record –
                                                              voice didn’t match appearance.
                                                              Glimpses of Leviathan in each
                                                              adherence. The Finals played in
                                                              the day room.


The deluge arrived before “When
The Sun Hits” and “Flume”. Refused
to pursue senses beyond what
pleasure demanded. Disbanded
allegorical caves beyond measure.
Got high in lemons.

                                                              Scaffolds clung to tall buildings.
                                                              Couldn’t quell the sense of
                                                              innocence amid cathedral bells.
                                                              Thought of Ovid on the coast
                                                              of Tomis: what would he posit
                                                              about our current spell?

I sat on the shore until you
implored me to come to you.
Glimpsed cypresses behind
your irises. Breaking waves
mirror pillars - sudden arcs
festooned.

-- J.L. Moultrie is a Detroiter and multi-genre writer who communicates his craft through words. He hasn't been the same since encountering Patti Smith, Sylvia Plath & Hart Crane. He considers himself a modern, abstract imagist.